I myself suffered from depression for years, thinking it would just "go away" but I was wrong. I am urging you to seek help as it nearly destroyed my life. I was to stubborn and to proud to see a doctor but simply it got so bad, I go barely function and no one wanted to be in my company. If you have not gotten professional help please do so without delay or excuse. I can not stress that enough.

I'd probably die if I had a cold shower lol. I hate the cold more than anything. Well apart from being too warm also


The sun rarely comes out especially in Autumn, Winter, Spring and Summer seasons It's quite a depressing place to live. I know I am still fairly young and have time but I certainly want to try and find a career path for me now rather than later.


I really dislike going to the doctors as I think many do. I will have to overcome this in order to help myself but I refuse to take medication for it so I hope they don't try.

Kinda funny how that is isn't it?

Your car dies. You take it to a mechanic.
You xbox360 dies you call M$ to get it fixed.
You phone dies, you go have it looked at.

When we need to fixed, we hesitate....

Material things don't have emotions, don't have feelings, couldn't care lesss about what happened...The human being wants to have hope, wants to believe in the best that can happen, if he gets hurt you wanna believe that wound can be healed, but what happens if that hope is destroyed even if you try? What happens if you have hope of getting fixed and, in the end, you hear "Sorry, there's nothing else I can do..."?

That's why we hesitate...

Hey man,

I went through the same thing about 2 years ago. I dumped job, location and took a year break from guitar. I signed up for school again, and moved 1000 km away.

Sounds drastic, but it's exactly what I needed, even though I'm not loaded rich there is definitely something to look forward to. And that was all I needed before. If you take my advice, don't sell your guitar equip unless you have to for school, you'll regret it.

If i were you i would ditch the pc games, video games or what so ever. My brother had a depression similar to this, and he hided himself in the world of warcraft. But when my parents banned that game, he started going out, meet friends etc. I guess the biggest reason was because he didn't have anywhere to hide (video games) and he had to face the problem.

Sorry, let me add...

Your 2 year old daughter is sick, You take her to the doctor.
Your sister has breast cancer, you support her going to radiatition therapy to go get well.
My wife had a son, you take her to the hospital to get delivered.
Your grandma needs a in-house nurse to take care of her. You hire one.

Im not sitting here over-analyzing everything in life. I go out and enjoy it and cross those valleys when I get there.

Im actaully old enough to be your father and feel like Im talking to my newborn son 17 years from now.

I really hope you get well too Rated and talk to your parents soon. You don't want to be my age only to realize you what you should have done.

Now back on topic about Paul.

If you want to ever move to Cleveland Paul I can help you settle in. Maybe look for a job or something. Im here to help if you need me.


This post has been edited by opeth.db: Feb 12 2009, 04:11 PM

I'm not scared to go out lol. I play video games for about 3 hours a day on weekends usually and if there is a gig or something or somebody calls me to do something like go to the cinema I choose that over games playing. I wouldn't say that is a huge problem but I play them every day and most weekend which is a problem.


Is there anything in Ohio

haha.

I want to move to USA and if I get a job anywhere it gives me opportunity to search for jobs in a specific part of USA while I'm over there and I can try and get a green card.

I stopped playing video games lately, but exhanged that with watching Simpsons every night.

That said, I do really miss playing video games every day.

Yeah, that makes sense now...I do that too you know? when a person needs someone, I'm there...That's my definition of being good, doing to others what you want others to do for you...It's easy to pass obstacles for others, because they depend on you to pass them, people need help like Paul here needs us, and he's getting better for hearing us talk, even though he might not see it that way. When you're the person who needs help, you deppend on other's actions, not words...But this isn't about me

Paul, I respect you man, you're trying to change things, you're trying to improve and you should look at all the people who are here for you, not for what you can do, but for who you are, these people should be called your friends...As for the job, I can't say that much, after all, I'm only 17...Girlfriend, can't talk to you about that, but remember...the problem isn't you, it's them...

I don't think personally there is anything wrong with playing video games in moderation. Playing games for 8 hours straight and wondering why you feel ill is when you need to worry. I play for a maximum of about 6 hours in a day I usually split my time up to make sure I'm getting the most done.

So usually I'll have 37 hours of work a week, 49 hours of sleep which is 86 hours a week which is 3 days and 14 hours woth of my week so pretty much 50% of the week is working or sleeping. I then tend to split the rest with band or playing guitar for about 10 hours a week, games about 24 hours a week, pub and seeing bands or socialising about 24 hours a week so that all adds up to 58 hours. I watch loads of TV shows at home each week so about another 18 hours. 76 hours and the last percentage of time I read or come on here

I'm quite sad and I want to do more sport but I love games. I enjoy playing them and to a point they do make me happy but also very stressed at times.

I don't even know the point of this post so probably best just to ignore

its sad that you are fed up with music. Cause im sure you would play some awsome blues

-frederik

I liked this post. It gave me motivation to split my week up in stricts. That might help actually.

If you ever have the time, Paul, would you reply to my long PM which was about mainly nothing at all but complaints - but you seemed very helpful and full of advice.

I can do for sure. The reason I haven't is I'm just off from work. I will reply later. Cya later mate.

No problem, man! Take your time!

Best feeling in the world, really. The moment you're off from work... at least to me. Untill I get home and start thinking: "Oh, damn! Only 7 hours till I go to sleep and then after that I'm back in hell!"

.. then there is something wrong with your job. Having this feeling every morning within the first years of your work life is like getting used to a bad habit with your guitar .

I agree with WRK on this Ben. If you get sick before you have to go to work in the morning and spend all your time off dreading having to go back to work that is a clear signal that you need to find a new job/career. I've been there and it is a stressful way to live.

I felt that way too. Cost me a lot of money to change careers but well worth it IMO.

Another thing could be your eating/exercise habits. Not getting enough good meals can lead to depression, get your grains and vegetables.

Being a bachelor, it's too easy to just grab something out of the can or freezer to nuke. It was only a couple days, and I started feeling the difference.

Really, I can not say it again but I will. Depression ruined my life for several years and nearly cost me my life. Look I thought it would just go away or that I could just "pull up the boot straps and move on". I was so anti doctor, anti medications and believed depression was just a weakness. Do not be fooled as I was cause things will not change. First at least for me the proper medication was the first issue. You see sometimes depression can be a physiololgical thing or a chemical imbalance. After taking a few and finding the right one ,it began to make a difference for me. Then of course it was time to make life adjustments and changing ones attitude and behaviors. Today I can say no medications and I am doing well.
But really man please do not waste time or days or perhaps years because it will consume you and everyone around you.