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that's my friend who died today. not by suicide. by a car crash. a stupid car crash into a stupid palm tree. he wasn't even driving. all three people in the car died. i don't know anything else.
of all the friends i knew, he was a person who did not deserve this. he always lived life to his fullest, and everybody liked him for being so kind. i mean, look at him. doesn't he seem like a great guy? it's because he is. he was so charismatic! he didn't drink, but he still hung out at parties. he could put a smile on anybody. he sung in a band. he went to church. he always stood up for the things he believed in, and he always did the the things he thought was right.
it makes me so sick of myself for wasting time here and there. i'm so over going "ah, i can't be bothered" to things and being lazy. because you never really know when your life is going to end. i feel like tonight is the night i really start living again...
i know everybody has loss, and i'm sure most of you have experienced hurt like this before. i'm not asking for attention, you don't even need to reply. i just needed to this out.. i didn't feel like talking to anybody on the phone or something. it'd feel like a screenplay. i'd say, "wow. it's not fair. why him" and they'd go "yeah, oh my gosh". i don't know why, it makes me sick. like everybody is running on automatic, with automatic responses. there's no words of wisdom you can really use in a situation like this. all the "he's in a better place now" "live everyday like there's no tomorrow" blah blah blah. it's all been shoved down my throat by books and television and video games already. i've heard it all a thosand times. and now when something really hits me, that's all people can say. i feel so... helpless.
death is a serious thing. i realize this now more then ever.
thanks for reading. you don't need to reply. i just needed to vent to something that has nothing to do with this. thanks GMC forums.
ours prayers are with you my friend.
The GMC's are here for you.
Plus your guitar
Im sorry for your loss.Me and my family will keep you in are prayer's.This is a very hard thing to deal with that many of us already have and some soon will.It's part of life and it never seems fair.I think you did the right thing writting about it here to get your feelings out.That always helps me ,when i have something that hurts inside i have to get it out wether its telling someone or writting it down.The more you get it out though can help and you can also spread his story as you go and let everyone know how great of a person he was.I think it would mean alot to him for people to talk about how great of a person he was and remember the good things about him.
In subjects like this there is never anything someone can say to make things better it's more an issue of time.The pain never goes away ,but the way you learn to deal with it gets beter in time.Be there for his family and maybe even have a gathering in memory of him where you can all talk about goods times and share story's with eah other.Once again im sorry and i wish you and there family the best.If you need to talk to someone i know many people here are there for you,i know i am.
well put brotha! we are all here for you.
That's horrible, he really seems like he was a great guy. It's almost funny how the best people get the worst treatment. Ironic, really. But maybe it's for some greater purpose, something we just can't comprehend. But this isn't what you want to hear, and as Dan said, it'll pass with time.
The only thing we can do is never forget them.
Edit: you know, reading all those comments makes you feel something. Everyone seems to love him, and even though I never met him, he's the kind of person I'd like to be. Loved, able to put a smile on everyone's face, and missed when I'm gone.
I think he just caused me to realize something I needed to change, too bad he isn't here to thank.
Im going to spare you all that other bullcrap I hate hearing when im sad and just say " God Bless my friend , things happen and you gotta pull through , were here for you m8! "
- John
Edit: Just looked at his myspace, looks like a cool dude , bare in mind what his mood was before he passed
I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope you can find some peace here at GMC.
-Kizaze
Asphyxia - really sorry to hear this. I'm not religious so can't make any offers that 'I'll remember it in my prayers' as I don't pray any more but none the less all my sympathy on this.
Cheers,
Tony
Sorry for your loss
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