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Feb 9 2009, 05:05 PM |
It's safe to say my life is going and has been going down the pan for the last 5 years and it's building to it's conclusion it seems right now. Here are the many things that haven't gone in my favour and it's safe to say I need help drastically. 1. My job is terrible. I get paid really well but it's the most depressing work I could possibly imagine and the manager complains at me daily and never tries to help out and he has had a general dislike of me from the start. I HAVE to find a new job. I can't carry on living with this job as every day makes me feel suicidal. I have to change this. 2. My money isn't good as it is and if I lose my job I'm screwed. This next payday in 2 weeks I have finally got into the plus for the first time in 6 years which should be a great moment for me but worrying about losing a job I don't want is overpowering this feeling as I know I'll be thrown back into this awful living and I have so much outgoing each month that I can't cancel and the biggest one doesn't end for good until October time 3. I have lost my love for guitar and more shockingly music. I never listen to music anymore. When people around me play it I get annoyed and tell them to turn it off. I hate the music I play in the band I'm in and I hate that we are now predominantly a covers band. This is dragging me down and the fact I'm useless on guitar after playing for near 7 years is demoralising also as I used to play for very large periods of time each day and I seem to have gone backwards. 4. I have like 1 friend that I care about and that is it and this means most weekends I just sit infront of the TV playing games for 2 days straight with about 4 hours for sleep in between. 5. I haven't had a girlfriend in like 5 years and I am getting older and older quickly but unfortunately I am an ugly loser with nothing to offer to anyone. I have just lost everything over the last 5 or 6 years. I feel I did a degree that is useless even though it is a great degree to have I just don't feel I am good enough at it and I don't think it offers me many opportunities where I am now. And also I hate the UK and want to move badly anywhere else. I just feel that over my whole life I have made wrong decision after wrong decision and I wonder whether things will ever be good for me. If anybody can help me then I'd be very grateful as I am terrible currently. Sorry to hear O.C., you sound quite depressed, and if you've been like that too long (and I believe you have), you need help from the outside. Having said that, and I bet you've heard this a zillion times already, you need to focus on the good things. Focus on the good. Remember that. Every time you focus on bad things with a destructive point of view you are one moe step away from happiness. You obviously know the things you don't like about your life, ok., take a constructive approach, find real solutions, step by step. I know it's hard to do, but it's the only way out of the whole problem. Believe it or not, of all the things you said, the one that scared me the most is that you say you don't like music anymore. Probably the least of your problems though, but I just can't imagine my life without listening to music, no matter how happy or down I may feel, music just has to be there, it's sacred. Again, I guess everyone is different... To sum up: you have a job that plays well, a friend, and a band... not everyone can say that, believe me. -------------------- Guitars:
Fender American Deluxe Stratocaster, Ibanez RG2570MZ, Epiphone SG G-400 Amp: Vox AC4TVH head + V112TV cab Effects: Vox Satchurator, Vox Time Machine, Dunlop CryBaby, Boss MT-2, Boss CE-5, Boss TU-2, Boss ME-70 Recording: Line-6 POD X3 + FBV-Express, Pandora PX5D GMC wants YOU to take part in our Guitar-Wikipedia! Have a good time reading great articles and writing your own with us in our GUITAR WIKI! Share your playing and get Pro-advice from our Instructors: Join REC |
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Feb 9 2009, 05:08 PM |
What makes things worse is that I really want to help out on here and I haven't done much at all for my wiki thing as I'm just so ill right now and I really am not doing well at all. I can do the wiki articles well I think but I can't do anything at the minute with the state I'm in. I feel sick every day and stress levels are through the roof. I need to see somebody but I don't want to take pills Don't worry about that mate, we talked about it in private messages, you know health goes first. Get better, see a psych/doctor, talk about it with friends, look for new jobs... -------------------- Guitars:
Fender American Deluxe Stratocaster, Ibanez RG2570MZ, Epiphone SG G-400 Amp: Vox AC4TVH head + V112TV cab Effects: Vox Satchurator, Vox Time Machine, Dunlop CryBaby, Boss MT-2, Boss CE-5, Boss TU-2, Boss ME-70 Recording: Line-6 POD X3 + FBV-Express, Pandora PX5D GMC wants YOU to take part in our Guitar-Wikipedia! Have a good time reading great articles and writing your own with us in our GUITAR WIKI! Share your playing and get Pro-advice from our Instructors: Join REC |
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Feb 9 2009, 05:09 PM |
I was also feeling really bad not more then 6 months ago...... I dident have a job i was studying on a distance course, i had a hockey coaching job that was really stressfull and i feelt really bad
What i did was i dropped out on the school thing and tried to think of how i can make my life better..... The tips i can give you is If you hate your job you cant stay there i mena your job takes up almost 1/3 of your life and you cant be misserable 1 /3 of your life...... Try to find a new hobby, something you think is really fun to do. Anythnig that can cheer you up...... Hang in there buddy there is hope -------------------- My Gear
Ibanez RG Jackson js30 warrior jackson rr24 Line 6 Spider III amp Line 6 pod xt live Washburn acoustic Youtube Account My bands Myspace |
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Feb 9 2009, 05:29 PM |
Hey pal,
Things arent as bad as you think, trust me! Ive been through some pretty rough times in the last 10 years but you have got to just keep trying to make things better for yourself, sympathy and advice is one thing but you have to want to change your life, I had a major turning point in my life at the age of about 23 when i was basically heading for some serious jail time (Where most of my friends were!) but I turned my back on all that and started working to being a better person for myself, but i wanted to do it!! If you want a sympathetic ear then i would try these guys http://www.samaritans.org/ they are totally anonymous and wont judge you on the size of your problems. As has been said mate you have degree (i dont) a job (You hate but at least you have one!) a good friend and a hobby, just get out in the world and make it happen, take a rash step and just join in with your local community, whats the worse that can happen? Above all take a good look at what is the root cause and change it, nobody else can make it happen, tust me it can be done! |
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