How Do You Manage To Live By Yourself?, A bit of random rants Options

[Storm Linnebjerg]

Hey everyone.

This is a kinda unusual post from me, as I'm not usually the kind who goes all out ranting like this... Sorry about that, but kinda have to get this out.

As some of you know, I recently moved away from home and into my own apartment. It has been great so far, and it still is - to some extent.

My girlfriend is here every now and then, often in weekends, but when she leaves the apartment becomes sooo empty. It's really like that whenever guests leave - though mostly when my girlfriend leaves.

Besides that work sucks at the moment, due to a bad district (I'm a mail man, remember?) at the moment and way to much post/mail. I would like to find another job, but no other job pays as well as this does, and gives you the same working hours. These at the job as a mail man is often great, but when you have a bad district or long or unfamiliar district you may be working 1 hour longer or so - so you're working 9 hours a day. Then you get home and before you know it your day has gone. And on top of that everything feels empty, because there's no company around here in the apartment.

To add to that I've lately felt a total lack of interest in doing things. In going to work, making dinner, go to the mall or anything in general. I often feel like just sitting and staring at the clock to make the time go slower. It may just be a general winter depression hitting me, but I'm usually not the type that gets knocked down by such.

I also woke up this morning feeling a strange dizzyness and kinda pressure in my chest, so I called in sick. And I feel like doing the same tomorrow, to try and get all this out of my head. But I also feel bad for doing so.

So to sum it up: I kinda feel like everything sucks at the moment and I can't be bothered to do anything and I just want time to slow down.

Rant over... And now I'm hoping for some cheerful replies...

EDIT: Oh and another thing... I've begun not being able to fall asleep at night...

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This post has been edited by Caelumamittendum: Nov 19 2008, 08:38 PM