Hey
The last year I've started dreaming about becoming a professional musician. Not in the rockstar kind of way, but with hard work etc, you know what I mean. Anyways, now it seems like I could be getting into an audio engineering education, as I just got a letter that I was one of the 31 persons to advance from the first test to the final interview. I think there are about 16 places on the education or something like that, so the thought of studiying that just became a lot more real to me compared to when there were 150 applicants for those 16 spots.
Anyways, that's what's making me think. I still want to become a good musician, with the ultimate goal of having it as a carrer, and in one way, going for this education for 3 years seems a lot like giving up to me. But the thing is, the education is at a music school and there's a lot of contact with music, so it's not like I'm moving from music completely. And I'm also aware of the fact that it's really hard to make a living out of music, especially since even some of our best and most awesome instructors here don't do it. But still, dedicating my life to something else for 3 years when I should be practicing guitar and music theory 100% seems like a waste of 3 years, even though I understand that it's probably the "right" or at least the safe thing to do. And I will still be able to practice music and guitar, I might even be able to start a band with some of the persons studying music there, but there's still something that makes me feel like this is giving up. Even though I can probably study music or something after those 3 years, but then I'm sure I'll have lots of depts for the loans I have to take to study etc.
Wow, this is a horrible wall of text that doesn't make a lot of sense, but it probably reflects the way I'm thinking very much. I just don't want to give up on my dream and think "what if" in 10 years. What I'm basically wondering is if you think that there's a chance to combine this education with that dream (for example, being an audio engineer makes it a lot easier to record and produce my own things etc, I know that but..), or if it's giving up.
Any replies would be great, this is a big deal for me and I don't know what to do. Worst part is that I need to be 100% sure that the audio thingy is what I want to do when I go there for the intreview, but the more I try to get in that state of mind, the more second thoughts I get. That might be me being stupid, but it might also be something I should worry about. I don't know. ANY advices or thoughts or anything would be immensely appreciated.